my failures

i have failed ohh lord and i have failed badly .
and I am so afraid of where this failure will take e if you dont save me ohh Lod ow when I need you .

the main issue of nto paying attention on what is important and concentting and disciplining myself God that has been a hue problem.
i am bound by sin everyday everytime .sins of
-lust (kwikinisha , no kureba ibyubusambanyi)
-extreme lazyness . please ngirira ibabazi kristo

you can see my desperation for you and that I am at he end i only need you to save me !! and you can also see my weakness of sleeping back everyime .
mbabarira ariko inyibuke rwose kuko nisezerano wampaye ko uzi intege nke zanjye ariko ko uzandinda ukabana nanjye nyibuka rero kristo

cliff falling

while some of my friends whom I preached to everyday to change their lives  and testified to with my testimony,have actually reached a point accepted the god news turned to Christ .
One of my friend Peter,his faith has grown so tremendously that he has become a servant of Christ bringing many to Him.he is so humble and so dependent on the Lord and believes without doubt.His new life is completely based on the Bible and Christ.He had to change almost everything in his life starting with friends,movies he watched ,music on his i pod,how much time he spent on reading THE WORD,I personally would testify that he has grown more fruits on the holy spirit.
Now back to me,the level of Christianity I was at,or the level of my faith when I landed at Pearson Airport was of great magnitude.In faith I had literally lived with the Lord and talked to him day and night.i lived a life of fear of sin,now that I think about it the Bible encourages us to be holy and I did take the advice and put it to action.
I was in the worshiping team,vice chairman of my most loved choir,preacher,leader of church youth,in the intercession team,I spent 6 days of the week at church.I loved it,did it voluntarily,willingly and joyfully.
my actions outside was a living testimony of mine but the more priceless was my relationship with God.
We were so close like a son and his father ,I talked to him about almost everything that bothered me and He heard me and answered.I have always said that God favored me,I got a lot of advantages on a lot of things. and my way was always prepared ,I was really favored.
Coming To Canada I knew it was war,a very murderous spiritual war,I knew it and I felt it inside me but I never knew to what extent and how I would be attacked,the worst of all I did not prepare my self  for the worst I  find myself in currently,I didn't even prepare how I would fight each temptation that would come my way,I was just too excited to come to this land of my dreams suck all the knowledge,get all the money I can get and be happy. and I admit I forgot about myself and who I was and the Christ in me.
......I cant continue ,the guilty is just too much may be next time

school issues

so one of the changes in my life recently has been school.
In my life I have always been a fun of getting new knowledge and I think God blessed me with a gift of retaining all the information I learn.
but now things have changed I am struggling just to achieve good marks.
but that is not the main issue,
the reall issue is that I have missed two midterms and the marks will be added on the final.
now I am so tensed,frightened and worried,
This has never happened to me before,why now and why me?
changes in life are acceptable but changes in academic perfomance will either bring happiness or a lot of bitterness in my life!!
I know God knows everything that happens to us and he has a good reason why I have to be struggling now that's why I am seeking hisd help because personally I can't but with Him who is great I will succeed,that's the only hope I have ,its the only one if I loose it I am done, or a better word screwed!!
GOD ,FATHER I NEED YOU NOW!!